Backwards

Hmm. This is a little backwards: at 9 weeks pregnant shouldn't I have a hard time buttoning my pants, not keeping them on my rump? Hopefully my appointment goes well on Wednesday and we can come up with a better solution to this. I'm so scared that it will never stop.

Love, the Christians- Jacob, Jess, Cricket, Courage, and the Olive growing in my uterus

Terrified

I am terrified that this is going to last through the whole pregnancy. Yes, medication helps, but barely and definitely not enough to allow me to have regular meals. I recently ran out of medicine, apparently the nice nurse at the clinic couldn't get my prescription refilled, and last night from 4pm-11am I was puking up nothing but stomach acid. Jacob walked to WalGreen's at 9am to get the expensive prescription filled ($60 for 10 doses) and I've stopped vomiting, but I still feel like I will again at any second. The scariest thing is that when its this bad it can last through the whole pregnancy- something I don't know how to survive. I keep telling myself, "just a few more weeks, just a couple more weeks," but after last night I am really doubtful. I need lots of prayers because I've never been more scared in my entire life.

Flinstone Vitamins!

The all natural prenatal vitamins and the gummy prenatal vitamins didn't work for me, I couldn't keep them down, so I switched to Flinstone Vitamins. They are quite tasty and I haven't had issues with keeping them down so I am super happy! Plus they have folic acid in them which is the most important vitamin right now! I go see my Nurse Practitioner on Wednesday and I am anxious for that- I feel like once we get the ball rolling with that this will all feel more real.

Love, the Christians- Jacob, Jess, Cricket, Courage, and the Raspberry growing in my uterus!

Momma Knows

Well, we just told my momma. I couldn't keep it in any longer and I wanted to cry to my momma about my nauseau and stuff! I hope she doesn't blabber mouth! And even though I love my momma I kinda want to strangle her because she said, "well, I never had morning sickness. Just with Shannon the smell of chicken made me nauseous." BOO FRIGGIN HOO! You couldn't have KFC... I can't even keep down water! I guess its kind of funny though and I bet she is smirking, but hey, she had a hellish labor with me so hopefully all the morning sickness is a sign that when my due date comes it'll be a breeze. *Knock on wood*

Love, The Christians- Jacob, Jess, Cricket, Courage, and the Raspberry growing in my uterus!

Jacob's Birthday

Poor Jacob, today is his birthday and not only is he stuck at work until 10pm, but we got up bright and early for my appointment at the Rigg's Clinic. They have a free pre-natal program there- you see a Nurse Practitioner until 34 weeks and then you switch over to the delivery MD. Needless to say, we are super grateful for this because without it we would have been screwed.

When we first got there, I told them about my anti-emetics and I would need a refill immediately. They told me no problem and to go through their "Med-Line". Once a nice receptionist gave me all of the information she told me it would take 7-10 DAYS for my prescription to be filled. I immediately started crying because I knew it would only be a matter of time before I was back in the ER and surely that day would come before 7 days passed. Luckily, the nurse on my case, a very kind woman took my information and assured me she would get my prescription today. I just hope Jacob remembers to pick it up.

I felt like such a baby crying, but I couldn't imagine going through the hell that I've been put through before, without the meds, again. I don't remember the last time I ate a real meal and last night Jacob and I were laughing how 24 Cheez-Its are a serving size when I am full after, like, 12. The meds seem to work a little better each day- like I said I can keep down Cheez-Its and also Luigi's Italian Ice. I'm gaining strength little by each day, but an outing (like to WalMart or the doctors) sends me into a coma almost immediately when I get home.

I talk to the baby, or at least talk to myself and pretend the baby can sense it. I feel so bad, I can't take care of it when its safely tucked inside of me how am I supposed to manage when its in this big cruel stinky world with no padding?

MmmmMMmmmMmmMMMMMmmm...

Enough Said...

Love Jess and the Blueberry growing in my uterus.

Hyperemesis Gravidarum

So, in about 24 hours it will have been one week since I ate anything semi-substantial (my last "meal" was a cup of potato soup at Apple Bees with Amy). I haven't been able to keep anything down since then, for a long stretch even water was not staying down so I had to go to the hospital (AGAIN!). Which sucks, but when you go over a day puking up your stomach acid and what little water you sip and you are responsible for a little life growing inside of you, the hospital even without insurance seems like the Land of Oz. They were able to hydrate me and give me some Zophram for my vomiting... That lasted about five hours before it started again. They gave me two other anti-emetics, which reduce my vomiting a little bit more each day, but I am still completely non-functional. I am exhausted and constantly nauseous and maybe hungry- who knows though?! I can't tell underneath all this nauseau!

I am really dizzy right now and just terrified of nauseau. My whole torso hurts and its very disconcerting. This whole entry is nothing but negative, and I am really sorry for that. I am trying to look foward to the latter parts of pregnancy, but its hard to imagine this Hyperemesis will EVER go away.

We looked at cribs online today. The drop side cribs were apparently banned in December, apparently they caused 32 infant deaths since 2001. We thought about going the El Cheapo route and getting a Portable Crib, but we read that those are supposed to be used for travel and similar situations only and not everyday use. So- there was a convertible crib for $160 at WalMart that came with the mattress. We're thinking about getting it! We'll see! I think we will want to see our crib in person and not rely on a little picture online or random reviews.

Magic?

Is this Blue Gatorade as magical as it seems? Because since I've been sipping it, starting around 7 pm tonight, my morning sickness has subsided. Only time will tell, but until then I will cling onto this magical blue beverage!

An Eventful Evening

The past few days, and Friday night especially I had increasingly bad shoulder pain, but in my back by my blades. It got horrible Friday night and I couldn't find a position to make it better. Also, about 5 minutes before I decided to take a hot shower, to maybe relieve some pain, I got a really bad pain in my right side, kind of a stabbing pain in my abdomen that lasted about 30 seconds that didn't subside until I stood up and walked around. I was really worried at that point so I called my old family doctor and she advised me that with the shoulder pain, the abdominal pain, and my strong family history of endometriosis (a big risk factor for eptopic pregnancy) that I go to the ER. Mind you, I had no bleeding, but Jacob and I decided we shouldn't chance it.

We got to the ER and everything turned out to be great, thank God. They said I did the right thing coming in, but everything looked good. I DO have a subchorionic bleed so they gave me RhoGam (for my negative blood type and in case of the blood mixing) and nauseau medicine and hydrated me because I was too nauseaus to eat or drink anything the past 2 days except occasional nibbles and sips. I am measuring between 5w5d and 6weeks, the heart was beating, and everything looked good! Here's our first ultrasound that will cost us every limb we have (and probably the cats' too) when the bill comes:

 On that note: I don't regret going at all. I know that things could have easily been on the other end of

the spectrum and turned out horribly, yes I may have jumped the gun as I had no bleeding, but it could have been the beginning of a painful night and the only way we would have ever know was going into the ER that night.

In other news: My hormones are off the chart.

•  At the hospital I was terrified of the needles- something I haven't experienced in years. I literally could not get myself to relax once I saw the needles.
• I cried today at Burger King when the cashier told me they were out of Cherry Icees, Jacob had to tell her Coke was fine (It is NOT FINE!!)
• I watched an episode of Intervention and sobbed through three quarters of it. My goodness!

Hope everyone is ready for 2011! Love, the Christians- Jacob, Jess, Cricket, Courage, and the Sweet Pea growing in my uterus!

Morning Sickness

The title of this post is morning sickness. And I literally cannot think of anything else to title it because "morning sickness" is what I've been experiencing majority of the last few days. I have done very little vomiting, but my nauseau is off the charts. I bought some "Preggy Pop Drops" as per the recommendation of my good friend who says they are great. Needless to say I am anxiously awaiting their arrival on my front porch!

I also forgot to update one big piece of news: my brother knows about little apple seed! I mean, between the nauseau and vomiting, my complete lack of appetite, and extreme fatigue, it was a given. But the straw that broke the camel's back was Busch Gardens. I had a ton of fun, but I couldn't ride majority of the rides. My ever-so-observant brother noticed this and basically pried it out of me. In retrospect, I am glad I got to "tell" him in person- I love my big brother!

In other news our Indiana apartment is freezing and we came home to a whopping fine for our space heater. DUH  you can see your breath in here, of course we have a stinking space heater! Good thing Jacob bought me a Purdue Snuggie for Christmas!

I'm so tired and excited to sleep in my own bed!

Love- the Christians- Jacob, Jess, and the Apple Seed growing in my uterus

On Vacation

I was really hoping my morning sickness would wait until after I got back to Indiana, but I think its starting to creep up on me. I got sick at around 5:30 this morning and have been feeling random spurts of nauseau since. Also, I am actually craving food now... Well not food, more like sweets. I could not resist a frozen lemonade at Busch Gardens yesterday and there is a chocolate turtle cake like four feet behind me that  I am intensely aware of.

Yesterday at Busch Gardens I had a little scare. It turned out to be absolutely nothing (I wiped, saw a spot of blood, cried, but really I just am all rash-y down there from wiping so hard and thats what it was). Other than that- still sore in my PG-13 area, pressure from my uterus expanding, and horrible skin!

Love- the Christians- Jacob, Jess, and the Apple Seed growing in my uterus